've been feeling a little weird inside these days, in a things-seem-to-be-going-good but actually something's wrong way. Everyone around's just making me miss banka so much ): Hmm school's going fine, friends and everything're ohhkay, studies are a bit like shit & I'm super unproductive though I've no freakin idea why. Maybe I'm sianedout by Bizsolutions, cos it seems like such an awesome you-will-have-a-bright-future kinda club but so far it just bores me out so much. It could be cheer, because no matter how I try I just don't seem to be doing it right. Or it could be dance, because I dunno why Patrick selected me that day when I don't think I deserved it & worse when I screwed up in the video (which's taking hell long to get uploaded & making me refresh facebook like mad) so I think his choice was to secretly mock me. Or ultimately it could just be the severe lack of sleep, from doing nonsense, from trying without avail to mug, from playing with my <3jichio. Which kinda means I oughta head to bed soon because I'm shagged out again despite waking up at 1pm & taking a nap since then.
